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The fact about losing

You know what’s hard?

Losing everything.

Everything; including the opportunities, the dreams, the future, the things that matter, relationships, friendships.

The bizarre effect of these is the reality that  you can lose yourself.


You lose yourself because you are tired.

You lose yourself because you are drained.

You lose yourself because you have given your all; heart, soul, body, effort, EVERYTHING you can offer.

You lose yourself because once it had given you happiness,

You lose yourself because you once considered it as your life.

You lose yourself because it had given you motivation, purpose, encouragement.


You lose yourself because of that one mistake,

ONE FUCKING MISTAKE.

It’s that mistake that took everything;

It ate the insides of you,

It crumbles the walls you built,

It disturbed the silence of your soul.

It destroyed you.

And all you can do now is to feel its effect,

All you can do now is to watch your world fall apart, right before your very eyes.

All you can do now is grieve over the “It should be’s”

All you can do now is sit and watch yourself cry.

All you can do now is nothing.

Nothing can ever bring you back to the start.

No one can ever bring back the old times.

Nothing. NO ONE.


You know what’s hard?

Losing everything.

And that’s how I lose everything,

All.

Myself.

Him.

Them.

Everything.

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