An open letter to the one that got away:
I don’t know how to start because I’ve never been in my senses since I received your message.
It was clearly a re-run, a flashback from the past, a memory I already buried deep in my grave.
You were unfair because all I ever did was believe in you. You were unfair because all I ever did was trust you. You were unfair because all I ever did was LOVE you.
And you still choose to break my heart.
Before we met, I was miserable; I was in search of completeness. Back then I knew I had lost my soul and my heart was nowhere with me.
But you came and brought back what was lost.
For once, you made me feel complete. You filled the emptiness in my heart. You made me feel safe. You told me you’re different and you’ll stay.
You said we’ll end up TOGETHER.
And I believed. I believed in everything that you said. And guess what, I WAS A FOOL FOR BELIEVING YOU because you left me, again.
For the second time, you left me in awe.
YOU LEFT ME and all I could do was to convince myself that I was dreaming but this is reality and all I could do is to accept the fact that starting today, what we had was over;because you choose to, because you ended it.
I TRUSTED YOU, there were doubts but I never gave in to them because I TRUSTED YOU.
You cared for me like how a prince should protect their princess. You believed in me and supported me in my endeavors, accepted my flaws and appreciated me even in my worst.
I LOVED YOU because I believed in second chances and I believed that YOU LOVED ME.
I was a fool, clearly I was and I could laugh over and over again thinking what we had was a joke.
Nevertheless, I wish you one thing; peace – that you may gain peace thinking this would solve your problem.
Yes I hate you but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to thank you – thank you for making me realize I am worth it and thank you for making me realize that I deserve someone better;someone who is man enough to live every word he says.
Thank you for showing me a glimpse of what forever looks like.
For now, I may not found the “good” in goodbye but someday I will.